Clarity & Commitment for 2021 | Kettlebell Fat Blast

Welcome into the platform podcast kettlebell fat blast edition. I am your host Jordan Kunde-Wright founder and head coach of the Twin Cities kettlebell club. On these special episodes, I'm going to be telling you about my own personal journey to get into the best shape of my life and shits about to get real. I'm going to take you on this journey with me and tell you the good, the bad, the ugly and share successes and struggles I have along the way. I'll talk about the frameworks and methods I'm applying to accomplish this goal and the why behind them without any of the BS and fluff that you see on social media every day. I'm pretty excited slash nervous to be kicking off these episodes. And in this first one, I get into the first two components of my framework on transformation, clarity and commitment, even talking about it makes it a bit more real. I have clarity on what it is that I want to achieve the time frame behind it, the why and what it will take for me to achieve it in that time frame. And I'm making a public commitment to document my successes or failures and achieving that goal. So everybody's going to know whether or not I make it. If you want to follow me along on this journey, you can check out my special Instagram profile, which is kettlebell fat blast. All one word on Instagram. Obviously catch these special episodes. You can still follow the Twin Cities kettlebell club at Twin Cities kettlebell club. And as always, if you're enjoying the content, please leave a five star rating and review on Apple podcast and support the work of the podcast by supporting our affiliates, which you can find the links in the show notes. Thank you so much for listening. I'm glad you're here. All right, welcome into the platform podcast. I am excited to be doing a little bit something different. So right now, I'm doing my first kettlebell fat blast podcast. So I've decided I'm going to start kind of a little sub series of podcasts within the podcast, where it's really just me talking about my journey and what I'm working on, you know, coming out of my taking on imposter syndrome episode that I just recently did, you know, I talked a little bit about needing to take action, you know, as one of the tips for taking on imposter syndrome. You have to take action. Right. So I'm going to be doing that myself. And I'm going to take my own medicine and I am committing to some things here in 2021. And one of them is going to be taking you on this journey with me as I, as I assess my own gaps and really look at the things that I need to do for myself in 2021 to feel like I am living congruently with what I'm espousing and what I'm asking my clients to do and what I'm telling you all you should be doing when I talk on this podcast. I want to make sure that I'm doing those things myself. And then I'm really stepping into a role of leading from the front and that I am living the way that I want to be living, pursuing the things that I want to be pursuing and having some honest conversations with people about how I'm applying my own frameworks, what I'm doing, the approaches that I'm taking, where I'm struggling, where I'm succeeding, you know, as I listen back to that imposter syndrome episode. I actually heard myself at the end, even having that imposter syndrome in my head still come forward at the end of that episode because, you know, I said, I, oh, I'm sure you guys can't wait for me to start having that kind of experience. I'm having guests on, again, because it's just been me rambling for 30 minutes, you know, I'm sure you're sick of that. That's imposter syndrome speaking right that's me in my head going, nobody wants to listen to me, you know, nobody wants to hear what you have to say, they come to the podcast to hear guests, they come to hear you interview experts, they come to hear you interview real people and they come to hear you get the stories from other people. I hear from you. And that's probably not true, it may or may not be true, but from the feedback that I got, you know, the people that took the time to reach out to me and talk to me about my imposter syndrome episode in particular, you know, told me that that episode spoke to them and that it meant a lot to hear that they weren't alone and that other people go through this as well. So that to me was kind of a call to action that I need to start doing more of that, and I'm going to do that. So this episode is really about my commitments for for 2021 and I'm going to check my notes here to make sure that I, you know, that I don't get off track too much, but, you know, I talked about, you know, assessing, assessing gaps in my in my, in my previous episode, right, in that part of the reason for that. For imposter syndrome, a lot of times is because we feel like we have gaps, and sometimes those gaps are in fact real. And the imposter syndrome isn't always in valid. Sometimes it really is, it really is something that we that we need to assess, and it is something that we, that we, we do actually have some gaps. And so for me, you know, I think it's part of it is I need to start really being, being honest about, you know, how I feel about my own body and some of my own struggles with, with really feeling like I'm living the mission that I have. You know, I have still kept off the weight that I lost all those years ago, and that should be celebrated. I need to give myself credit for the fact that I have legitimately lost a large chunk of weight, you know, a whole human, really, and kept it off for for a decade. You know, but there is also, you know, there's also a part of me that needs to be realistic about, you know, what my motivation is behind that and how I feel, you know, about myself sometimes. And I think that that's important, that, that I do that, and that I share those things with, with other people so that they know that, that I am not hiding, and that I am not pretending. And one of the things that has kept me from doing that has been the feeling that, unless I'm perfect, or unless I really look the part that people aren't going to want to hear from me, they don't want to hear from someone who's struggling, they don't want to see, they don't want to see the struggle that goes into it. I don't want to hear about the labor, they just want to, they just want to see the baby, you know, to paraphrase Bill Parcells, he used to say, don't tell me about the labor, just just show me the baby, which is, you know, a funny, a funny saying, but it's also something that is not necessarily true, because a lot of times people, people do want to hear about the, about the, the labor. The labor that went into it, right, because it's a labor of love a lot of times, and it's, you know, it's, it's, it's legit, and people go through these struggles a lot, and I am, I'm not unique in that way, like I have a lot of things that inform my perspective, and it's from my own, it's from my own personal experience, and it's from my own personal struggles, and, and sharing those things with you. It will help me make that real, and make that, and really make that something that I think you guys can identify with, and that people can, can relate with, you know, so, you know, when I, when I've said in my past, you know, that I don't care about, you know, that I didn't care about how I looked, I was really focused on, I was really focused on performance and achievement, that was only partially true, but a lot of it was bullshit. I've always wanted to look the part, I've always wanted that, I've always wanted to look like I, you know, I always wanted the six pack abs, I wanted the, I wanted to be lean, I wanted to be, you know, I looked at guys like, you know, Brad Pitt in Fight Club with his, you know, shredded six pack abs, and then like, God, I want to look like that. You know, and I'm still not immune to that, you know, I've said for a long time that that physique was never my goal, but there are plenty of times, where, where I really cared about how I look, and I just used my, the performance component of it as a justification to hide, or to, to go after a goal that I felt like I deserved or that I could achieve, and I didn't think that it was realistic for me to achieve that goal, because I was a fat kid, you know, years of being called fat and being uncomfortable in my own skin led to a lot of that internalized shame, which I've talked about, you know, I ate to feel better, and I told myself lies, and I pursued performance, achievement, and education to feel good enough, you know, but when I got hurt and couldn't play football anymore, and I didn't have my vehicle for achievement, I lost a big part of my compass, because I had no, I had no achievement to hide behind at that point, and then, you know, when I was working in an office job, I was just another office drone just doing my work, you know, and I didn't have anything to hide behind, and that got really, really challenging, so that's, you know, when I glomped on to masking mechanisms, like taking, taking painkillers, and smoking weed, and drinking too much, and doing all of those things, right? So, you know, I'm not going to do that anymore, I'm working on my mastery of self, that's really my commitment for 2021, and I'm committed to taking my own medicine, and, you know, really looking the part, and talking to you guys about what that looks like, and how that's going, right? So, you know, I think that there's kind of a hierarchy that I teach my clients, and I've really spent a lot of time in this past month, especially trying to get some, some real clarity around, around these things, and that's the first step in the hierarchy, it actually goes clarity, commitment, consistency, and then we get into calories, macros, microse, timing, supplements, right? So, if we're looking at physical transformation, and we're talking about you like nutritional hierarchy of things, you know, we have to start first with clarity, what is it that you want to achieve, right? That's the first step, right? What do you want? You know, so, when I have said for a long time, oh, I want to do this, or I want to do that, I want to perform, I want to get a football scholarship, I want to be the strongest guy, right? Like I said, some of that was true, but some of it was bullshit, because I also wanted to look the part, you know, I wanted to look good, I wanted to not feel ashamed of how I looked, you know, and so, now, I can honestly say that, I want to look the part of a nutrition coach, and of a fitness expert, right? I want to look the part, I want people to look at me and say, that guy's in shape, that is somebody that knows what the fuck he's talking about. And I 100% know that abs do not make you a qualified coach, Mike Silverman and I had a really good conversation about that in our last episode. I hope you guys get a chance to listen to it because it was a great conversation. Mike is super, super smart and a great credentialed coach and can teach people and deliver incredible results for his clients, right? So, and we talk about how that has nothing to do with how you look and how being a good kettlebell coach doesn't mean that you are the best lifter, right? But I also know that I can look better than I do, I know that I can be leaner than I am, I know that I can get my body fat down. And I know that if I did those things that my performance in kettlebell sport would improve, I know we better for me to compete a weight class down from where I'm currently competing. I'm competing in the super heavyweight division because I've never gotten to a point where I could sustain a 225 or 235 pound frame. I've gotten down that low before, but I never stayed there. I got down to 225 and then fairly quickly bounced back up to like 245 stayed there for a while and then slowly kind of crept my way back up to 25260 where I currently reside, right? I'm currently in the 260's, depending on the day, you know, between 268 and 262, depending on how consistent I'm being, how hydrated I am, how much sodium I've had, you know, all of those factors that play into daily weight fluctuation. But, you know, being 265 pounds and, you know, 20 to 25% body fat isn't impressive to anyone and nobody's necessarily going to look at me and be like, oh, that guy's clearly a nutrition coach. So, I want to change that. I want to live congruently in a way that makes it obvious that when people look at me, they're like, oh, that guy clearly works out. He's clearly in good shape. He clearly knows nutrition and all of those things. I don't necessarily need to have ripped six pack abs. I don't know if I'm, I don't know if I can get there, you know, genetically speaking, you know, I probably could get there for, you know, a period of time, but I definitely don't, don't think I could stay there. I'm not one of those people that can probably just walk around with abs all the time, but maybe I'm wrong. I don't know. We'll see. Maybe that's a, maybe that's a story that I'm telling myself because I don't want to, I don't want to put in the work to see what it takes to look that, to look that, look that part. So, you know, I've assessed my gaps and I'm, I'm going to, I'm going to go after those things. So I'm committing to, I'm competing in October at the Twin City Kettlebell Club Invitational. I am committing to competing at the heavyweight division, which is around 100 and 105 kilos, 225 or 231 pounds, I think is the, is the cut off if I'm doing the math right. So, you know, around that 225 pound to 230 pound mark, I'm going to get there. In October, that, that's where I want to compete at, and I'm going to bring you guys along on that journey. You know, and I, I think I've gotten into, you know, the, the, what do I want and why do I want it. I think the why part is super important, right. It's important to me. That I have a little level of credibility, just based on my appearance, because the reality is that's, that's a factor in this, in this industry, in this space doesn't mean it's right, but it's the reality. And I'm going to, I'm going to take that on because it's something I think I can control and it's something I think I can do better at whether or not I can get to where I look the way that I want to look. I don't know, because I still have some work to do in my head. No matter how lean I've ever gotten, I've never felt good about the way I looked and that's probably some more work that I have to do in my own self worth and body image and some of those things. And that's a, that's an ongoing battle for me. That's probably going to be a lifetime battle for me. And that's okay. I can, I can deal with that. So, I'm going to, I'm going to do that. And, you know, so the, the next piece is assessing what, you know, what will it take, having clarity around what will it take. And I think, based on my experience, what it will take for me to get where I'm saying I want to go and what I'm committing to is it's going to take me every bit of, you know, the next, the next eight, nine months probably to get there if I'm going to do this in a healthy way. Because I need to do it in a way that is congruent with what I coach people on, which is you don't want to do, you don't want to make short term sacrifices that will have long term detrimental effects on your health to get where you're trying to get to don't let the goal becomes so important that you sacrifice your long term health short term goals should never sacrifice your long term health because you won't stay there. You won't, it won't be a sustainable habit. It won't be a sustainable lifestyle. And you'll put the weight back on. And you'll probably put on more. And then it will be harder for you the next time to lose it, et cetera, et cetera. Right. I'm not going to do it in that in that manner. So, I'm going to need, I'm going to need time to do it safely. It's going to take effort. And I have hired my own coach because I think coaches should have coaches. If you have a coach who doesn't have their own coach, I would question whether or not they are willing to invest in themselves and whether or not if they are not willing to invest in improving themselves. I don't necessarily think it's fair for them to expect other people to invest in their services to improve themselves. I think most coaches do have coaches or they use coaches when they feel they need them. And I'm at a place right now where I feel like I need a coach and you're going to get to meet her on this podcast. And then in the not too distant future, I won't commit to when that's going to happen because she has a very busy schedule and I want to be respectful of her of her scheduling and her requirements. So, but you guys will get a chance to meet her. I'm going to bring her on. We're going to talk about why coaches should hire coaches and some of her approach to to nutrition and transformation. So, I'm really excited about that. So, you know, I'm committed to that. I'm I've kind of assessed what I think it's going to take. And you also have to assess what are you willing to sacrifice and what are you not willing to sacrifice? I touched a little bit on what I'm not willing to sacrifice. I'm not willing to sacrifice my long term health to achieve a goal to achieve an arbitrary weight goal. So, if in the process of this, it becomes clear, you know, five, six months down the line that I can get very, very lean, but I'm still not going to hit that arbitrary number of 231 pounds. So, then we might have to reassess the goal, but I think I still think it's a realistic number for me. I'm I'm pretty sure I have 30, 40 pounds. I could lose a healthily and safely, you know, over the next, you know, eight months. So, we'll see. We'll see how it goes. But I'm not willing to sacrifice my long term health, but what I am willing to sacrifice is my pride, you know, that I can do this on my own. I can I can coach myself, you know, I'm going to lean on my coach and we're going to collaborate. I'm going to bounce my ideas off of her. She's going to she's going to coach me and, you know, tell me the hard things that I might need to hear. I'm going to defer to her expertise. And, you know, so I'm swallowing my pride a little bit there that's, but we'll get into that a little bit more on that podcast. I'm obviously willing to sacrifice, you know, some money. I'm willing to sacrifice time. I'm willing to sacrifice. Yeah, drinking. I'm going to talk to you guys about my dry January and how that went in a different episode. But, you know, I'm willing to sacrifice that. I'm willing to sacrifice some other things, you know, but small sacrifices, sacrifices to achieve the goal. I'm willing to sacrifice my focus on kettlebell sport, you know, so willing to sacrifice some performance right now in order to achieve my, my aesthetic goals and my body composition goals, because that's a higher priority for me right now. And those and that priority means I can't chase both of those rabbits. At some point, you have to choose which one you're going to optimize for and I'm going to optimize for aesthetics. And so that's, you know, kind of the kind of the next phase and, you know, I'm making the commitment publicly that I'm going to pursue these things. And then I'm going to put these things out there. I'm going to talk to you about them. And then, you know, we're going to get into some episodes on consistency. How do we build habits. What are the habits that I'm working on. I'm going to talk to you about the calorie framework that I'm working on and some of the math behind calories and calories out and metabolic functions that go into the calories and calories out and why it's a little more complicated than it meant it's a typically discussed in particularly in like fitness magazines and pop culture, you know, and anecdotally, you know, it's, it's not as simple. As it's often made out to be. But then we'll also get into some of the, you know, macros and what are macros and how do you, how do you prescribe them? How do you cycle them? What do they do? macros, what are those? Why are they important? You know, how do you get those in gut health, timing of nutrients supplementation, you know, I'm going to do some of these shorter quicker episodes talking about some of these things. And they're all going to be under under the label of, you know, fat blast, the kettlebell fat blast because that's what I'm, that's what I'm working on and there's more coming on that front too. I'm excited about about something I'm working on, not, not ready to announce it yet, but, but working on some other, working on some other things that are not just specific to kettlebell sport. So my, my base is broadening, my focus is there. I'm really excited for 2021. I'm committed to, to mastery of self in 2021 is really my focus, as I said before. And this is a big year, man, I'm, I'm fucking stoked for it. Thank you for being a part of it. Anybody that's out there that's actually listening to this, I appreciate you, hit me up, you know, Twin Cities kettlebell club at gmail.com, hit me up on Instagram if you've got questions, please give a five star review and rating to the podcast. It's helped me get new listeners, which is, which is important to me as well. I want to grow my audience. I want to bring more people in and that's part of the reason I'm getting vulnerable here and talking to y'all about, about the things that I'm going through and, and how this process is going to apply to me. I'm going to start filming as well as doing audio. So this, this podcast episode is actually being recorded on my camera in my room here. So I'm not just doing audio only. I'm going to start sharing some video. I'm actually probably going to post some old episodes that that were done with video onto my YouTube channel. So I got to get a YouTube channel setup for, for the podcast specifically. So that's another another thing on the list, right? So continuing to knock things out on my get shit done list. But the list seems to have new things on it. The more and more I push to try and do more cool stuff with this. And there's only so much time because this is, this is still just a passion project for me. But thank you all so much. I hope y'all are having a great start to 2021. I look forward to hearing from you. I look forward to sharing this journey with you. Wish me luck. And, uh, grow or die, baby. I'll see you guys out there. Thanks for listening. We'll talk soon. Until next time. Thanks for listening to this episode of the platform podcast. I'm Jordan Kunde-Wright. Right. If you have a question, please email me at Twin Cities Kettlebell Club at gmail.com. Follow us on Instagram and Facebook at Twin Cities Kettlebell Club on Twitter at TCKB Club online at Twin Cities Kettlebell Club. And please help us grow our reach and give us a review on Apple podcasts, Spotify, Stitcher, or wherever you get your podcasts. Until next time.